Now that i am a wife and a mother AND a woman trying to establish a career, time is too fast for me. Each time i sit down and blog, i find that there are too many things going on in my life that my fingers hardly find anytime to type in this space.
Being a mother is a real roller coaster ride. There are good times and there are "self-pity" mode. Filtering is important before the self-pity thoughts destroy the joy of my motherhood.
Today i felt like i am worst than a maid. A maid has day off, and i don't even get day off. I am very sick these few days and still i can't have sick leave.
Today i thought : one child is enough as i don't think i can cope with another one. A lot of times, i feel i am a single parent. After spending time with Isaac the whole day. Just when i thought my son is asleep at 730pm, that i can get a break and rest, my next role take over: i have to accomodate/serve my husband.
I am trying very hard to find my own space. When i sit down and think, now my son is asleep and my husband is busy with his own work, where is irene? Where is ME? What is ME? Apart from a wife and a mother, what am i?
Of course, not everyday of my life i feel this way. Today is one of those days... and i know i am alright as life is a journey... and i have still a long way to go...