Been super busy this week, meeting friends, my ex-colleagues, niina, meiling and bernadine. Nice and funny bunch, same age range, all pharmacist, one has joined the medics last academic year, enjoying herself.. good times... is my job more than paying my bills? Mei ling asked.. well err... okay.. i answered. Told them about the stories that happened, including those juicy ones that i wrote in here. They laughed. Mei ling asked me to consider working for london transport, tube driver, same salary as me currently, work 4 days, rest 4 days, more holidays, easy job, just dangerous, when bomb happens. hmnn.. worth a thought? neh... can't breathe in those air in the undergroung and come home with black black nostrils. HA! is money everything? NO..
Flying back to KL coming Tuesday. I CAN'T WAIT, i repeat I CAN'T WAIT.. plenty of things to do, wedding gown, print invitation cards, look for wedding favour, etc.. not time to meet anyone.. 3 days to do them all.. then . .sunny sdyney here i come .. ngek ngek
A lot has happened today and my calmness has been stolen away. I am not happy,I know, advises are meant to be good for me. I just don’t like to be told off… it’s my pride… and also I feel ashame =((
Found out about the politics at my workplace, I am so innocent and gullible, as Andrew Cheng always said. Miss A tried very hard to keep Miss S ‘s job, as her contract runs out in March. I just found out that Miss A did that so that she can get higher paY as Miss A manages only one staff, which is Miss S. Miss S knows that, but I didn’t. So i finally found the hidden agenda.
I find that few people in my team has been overpaid, including me, while our lovely data analyst, Miss T works like a donkey, yet get less paid and no appreciation. No one likes to be told off, no one likes being screamed at, or even being shown faces from others. Miss A’s tone of voice intimidate me, which I totally can accept , since we are all imperfect. Her presence in my life definitely gives me a constant reminder of alternate ways of communication. As Albert said, sometimes my high pitch voice provoke his emotion, eventhough i wasn't angry.
Second thoughts : what I do affect others ! I was ashamed of myself, insensitive toward others. Not too late I hope. I can’t be so self-centred, I need to change. No longer a child. Adult, too many decisions to make and too much price to pay for the wrong ones. I don’t like this…. Change is good, only when others do not have to do extra work for the change that you proposed. Story: I find that the old version of the audit template is lengthy and woolly. I decided to make it more concise and precise. Result, my colleague Miss A didn’t like it, because if I changed it, all of the audits that they do have to be changed. Moreover, I will be on annual leave for the whole month of April. She was right. In the end, I changed all of my format and back to normal. I don’t want they to curse me while I am away.
Third thing : I spend too much time on the phone. Aiks… sometimes I do call home when I am in the office mar. Aiks aiks.. have to watch my back.. to many eyes and spies…
Argghhhh .. one of those days.. !!!
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
When i read the passage, it didn't connect with my issues.Then , i decided to map out my thoughts and jot down on paper. Then. it made sense!!
There is time for everything!!! Eventhough i am not doing what i wish to do, eventhough i am just so lost now, eventhough i feel my life is wasting away, it doesn't matter!
I don't have to be the hero of the world. I just need to open my eyes and see the need around me, and live out the fruit of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness,goodness,faithfulness, gentleness and self-control in all my dealings with people: colleagues, friends, ex-colleagues, family, strangers, the bus driver, shop keeper, cashier at Sainsbury etc.
Yes!!! I was in cloud 9 ! God spoke to me! I went away fulfilled.
No Joke!
I must tell you what happened yesterday, I cut albert’s hair!!!
Albert has been complaining that he needs a hair cut badly. So I volunteered, eventhough I had no past experience or qualification. I was surprised that he was willing to take the risk. I was excited, had a scissors on my right hand, and the comb on the left. Worked on the hair near the neck.. but ALAS¬!!!!! Disaster!! It wasn’t straight at all, Have you seen artwork done by a kid? Where they cut a straightline with their scissors without following a straighline? His hair was like that! No kidding. I was scared. It looked ugly. After the straight line attempt, I needed to layer his hair, albert taught me how to do it, but I told him I don’t dare to cut it. He was frustrated. “What? You decided to quit and leave my hair like that?” The project ended.
I searched on the google “how to cut hair” or “ instructions on cutting hair” attempt failed.
I feel like enrolling myself and start learning. It amazes me how hairdressers manage to have different hairstyles while I struggled even to cut the hair short!!!
Albert went to Chinatown today to get his hair cut. He said the hairdresser will laugh at him. I replied : “Just tell them that you have a friend who is learning how to cut the hair”
Go on, laugh at me.
Went to visit Dr. E, A GP in my locality, as part of my job, which is to promote cost-effective prescribing. I monitor their prescribing trend, make sure they don’t prescribe large quantity of sleeping pills and harm patients etc. It was my first meeting with Dr. E, as I am new to this job.
First thing on the agenda: Atorvastatin and Simvastatin, both are used to lower cholesterol level in patients. Atorvastatin cost £18.01 per 28 tablets, while simvastatin cost only £3.89. I showed him the literature where all clinical trials were tabled and showed him the effectiveness comparing atorvastatin and simvastatin. 10mg of Atorvastatin and Simvastatin 40mg decrease cholesterol level by 37%, ie at that dose, they both do the same job, same level of reduction. I showed him the evidence. To my dismay, he chose to live in DENIAL.
“This is not true. I don’t believe this”
How do you response to people who chooses to live in denial?
I told him that the result was from 164 clinical trials paper and is the highest level of information in terms of credibility.
“How many GPs have you visited and how many has agreed to simvastatin as first line?”
“I have visited three”
“Who are they?”
“Dr. G, Dr. D and Dr. W”
Dr. E picked up the phone and called Dr. G in front of me. I couldn’t hear the other end of the conversation, the last word from Dr. E was : “ Yeah, they don’t listen to us”
Dr. E turned to me and said “ Dr. G said he agreed because of your persuasion”
To be honest, I don’t know what is the whole argument about, because when I asked him which statin does he use as first line, he answered: Simvastatin !!!
I prayed in my heart for wisdom and for self-control.
As written in the bible, Proverbs 12:15 : A fool shows his annoyance at once, but a prudent man overlooks an insult.
In the end I told him, … just when I spoke the third words, he interrupted me. I said, please give me a chance to speak and let me finish my sentence. I can’t control you, my job is to lay out the evidence before you, share our interpretation of those result and our opinion, and by the end of the day, you can do what you want. You are a health care professional, I am a professional too.
The rest of the conversation went well.
Quite a drama.
