called kia meng today. Had an inkling that he suffers internal turmoil, like me. I don't know what is the trigger.. i am just lost.. what is life? is life about pleasure? If that is life, i haven't tasted life yet. Is life about sufferings? If that is the case, i have tasted life yet. Everyday is the same to me, day and night, sunrise and sunset... where am i heading? what am i doing here?